We rise

Society is not violently sick, or inherantly evil. This is my work. My conviction... it goes against dysfunctional religion; that serves no spiritual needs, that reveals abuse and does nothing good for humanity. They call themselves Christadelphian, mormon, JW... what ever else. They bring humanity down, or offer us the choice of rising above. So we rise.

A thing worth doing

I have been quiet. I have been pouring myself into a book. It is a project not just mine, but of others as well. It is not bitter, but it most certainly is spiritual. Not in the religious way, but spiritual from creating something worth making, pushing boudaries, blowing away the cobwebs of fundamental religion that are scourge on humanity. Spiritual from using the gifts one is given.

Something worth doing, and I am a part of it.

What is more is that I am no longer angry, just sad at how screwed humanity is thanks to exclusive religion. Cant do much for the middle east, but I can change the streets I walk.

Cult letters

'Im not going to tell you what to believe or do, but if you look inside your heart with all honesty...'

Ah, cult letters just crack me up in laughter.

Little lady, what about the part where you are not going to tell me what to do?!?!

Honestly I dont know why they bother, I am not nearly going to give up my power

A link that sums up fundamental churches gone rotten

http:fortheleastofthese.wordpress.com/spiritual-abuse/

Hardcore jealousy and fear of death

In the cult of Christadelphia I was taught and so belived a certain couple were evil and I was above them. These two Christadelphians were an areobic instructor and an ambulance officer.

Both JW & Christadelphians have issues with children learning about war and death. We have been sheltered from history about world war one and two as children. We were taken out of class when the topic of war came up. Why does this threaten cult? Why do careers such as ambulance, police & military threaten cult?

I was never given a reason why it was wrong in Gods favour to be an ambulance officer. I could never accept that it was simply wrong. These people were surely at the forefront of care!

In all hindsight now I think it threatens this mentality... When one dies young, old, for no apparant logic... It was simply our time... Cults have no comprehension of this... To them all is black and white.

I met a fireman who trained those in 9/11. He had come to peace with much death. A man who had seen death on terrible scale. He was at peace with death knowing it as inevitable and a part of life.

Cults cannot accept death as a part of life. They rage against death and in doing waste life.

It is not evil to be an ambulance officer. It is not evil to study world war. What is harmful to human existance is denial of conflict and failure to learn the lessons there in.

As for being an aerobic instructor... What the fuck? Is that not hardcore jealosy or what!

Hardcore jealousy and fear of death

In the cult of Christadelphia I was taught and so belived a certain couple were evil and I was above them. These two Christadelphians were an areobic instructor and an ambulance officer.

Both JW & Christadelphians have issues with children learning about war and death. We have been sheltered from history about world war one and two as children. We were taken out of class when the topic of war came up. Why does this threaten cult? Why do careers such as ambulance, police & military threaten cult?

I was never given a reason why it was wrong in Gods favour to be an ambulance officer. I could never accept that it was simply wrong. These people were surely at the forefront of care!

In all hindsight now I think it threatens this mentality... When one dies young, old, for no apparant logic... It was simply our time... Cults have no comprehension of this... To them all is black and white.

I met a fireman who trained those in 9/11. He had come to peace with much death. A man who had seen death on terrible scale. He was at peace with death knowing it as inevitable and a part of life.

Cults cannot accept death as a part of life. They rage against death and in doing waste life.

It is not evil to be an ambulance officer. It is not evil to study world war. What is harmful to human existance is denial of conflict and failure to learn the lessons there in.

As for being an aerobic instructor... What the fuck? Is that not hardcore jealosy or what!

Primary, secondary grief, integration & a gnarly scar

The cult upbringing  and the abandonment of children who resist the cult...
 
To the cult parents there exists no abandonment. As long as the parents subscribe to the cult there exists  inability to comprehend their actions as abandonment. It actually appears for them to be the opposite, and that is a common theme in cults, denial totally reverses perception. From a cultist viewpoint with drawing contact is an action of love to bring the child back to cult and away from the world that  is evil. At worst they consider this tough love... if they care to ponder their actions at all.
There fore if a child does not respond to the needs of the parents, the parents become frustrated, they come to believe the child is selfish and ungrateful, they become angry, and that anger is dysfunctional because it is not allowed to be recognised. The cult family has to be perfect. It cannot tolerate dissent about cult involvement.
 
In the eyes of parents and siblings and other cult families the child resisting the cult is seen as sly, ungrateful, a loner who doesn’t want to know anyone or accept other peoples ‘help’. A child who wallows in misery and resistance to ‘love’, a selfish child, a problem child, a bad personality unable to socially operate with people who matter most, people in the cult. Friends out in the world are discouraged and   the child has indoctrination to overcome that discourages social contact with the world. The child has no where to go, but inwards. No friends, no one to trust. Especially not ones own family. Trust, it becomes a massive issue that will block happiness and access to support.
 
And what of the child? Told that they are ungrateful, selfish, that something is wrong with them for being to sullen. Told through words, actions and implications they are evil. Told so fully in so many different ways by the massive spread of cult influence, unrelenting that they are evil.
The child comes to believe the accusations of guilt, slyness, ungrateful, loner, selfishness. Comes to believe these things and after self esteem is broken, comes to hate themselves. Comes into dysfunctional coping mechanisms to keep themselves alive as they feel so dead inside.  Grief that a child is told not to feel. Grief that is rejected and denied, but real to the child.
As an adult there is a real need to feel and release that grief. Grief valid, about our lost childhood and the punishment and fostering of self-punishment and guilt accumulated until the time we realised the cult the Christadelphians are and what they did to our parents and family.
But there is a secondary grief after this. Grief over loss of ideal parents. Remembering of the times we fantasised that our parents watched our triumphs and applauded. Remembering times when someone helped in such a little way, just as part of their daily routine they took for granted, but was a unique un thought of help that made us wonder at the support that family was for other people.
We can rage and rage at the cult. Wage war against it, write books about it. Go on TV and testify. Choose our form of anger burn and pour our rage into that. Saturate the web with the image of the cult the Christadelphians or JWs deny and cannot comprehend in their addiction.
 
But there is really only one thing driving this. All of this anger and hate is merely a distraction. The war against the Christadelphians is a futile, energy consuming battle that cannot be won. You cannot fight denial. Your life you would fight the Christadelphians and lose.
 
This war is merely  a distraction from acceptance of our loss and the grief that until now we were unwilling to feel. It is now our time to face denial, denial of the chasm of grief and loss so terrible to face we tried to move mountains to keep from.
The Christadelphians are a useless, toxic  bunch of manipulative bastards. I want nothing to do with them. They are not even worth a war to me now. It is now time for me to focus on integrating the grief of my losses into my life and moving on to happy and better times with a gnarly scar, showing me what I had the power to recover from.